Today was kind of special. Tuesday is my walking night. But today I changed it up a little. I stopped home after work and strapped on my heart rate monitor and put on shorts and my running shoes. I thought I might change my pace today. I got to Green Canyon and started to walk. But after a short distance, I decided to try and run. I was not sure how my body would take it. But it felt GOOD. Anyway, I went for 3 miles. The first half was up hill and the second down hill. Of course I was able to run the whole down hill section, but I did run at least half the up hill section. For me, this is a big deal. I am not an exercise Nazi, but I do like to try and stay fit. After my heart attack, I knew that I wanted to keep that muscle strong in case of another one my heart would fare as good as the first time - no dead tissue. So today was good.
In my last post, I mentioned that there was more to the story of the upcoming doctor's appointment on 7/2/15. Well the irony of the situation is that while I have been pushing to try and talk about the next step and moving forward, the doctor leaves on vacation for the whole month of July after he sees me on 7/2. So as far as my surgery goes with this doctor it appears that the soonest time would be August and more likely September. Not sure how I feel about this. Not sure how my cancer feels about this. It seems like this meeting on the 7/2 will be interesting. I wonder how much of his mind will be on my questions and concerns and how much will be on his vacation plans. It's times like this I need to remind myself to not worry about things I have no control over.
Well it's late and tonight I am tired. Thanks everyone for your prayers and support. The wheels do seem to move slow. Good night.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
Returning to normal
It has now been 2 weeks since I sat in a chair for 6 hours and let the chemo med drip into my veins. I had lost 15 lbs. from then till now. I can see it in my face. My hair and whiskers stopped growing, so I haven't shaved in 8 weeks or so.
But I have been getting stronger over this past week. My appetite has almost returned. But I still miss the feeling of being hungry for something. You know when you just have a craving for something. I don't have that - yet. But I do somewhat feel the sensation of hunger. I am working full days, 5 days a week. I do get tired. Bit as I said earlier, I am getting stronger each day.
I decided that I needed to start my exercise program back up. For me that means walking up Green Canyon after work. Not everyday, that would be to much. So Tuesday I decided to walk 2 or more miles. First half uphill - Second half down. So I am a mile up and decide I feel good enough to keep going and I start to climb gate hill. I get almost to the top and a truck approaches me going down. The truck reaches me, slows down, and then stops. The window rolls down and the driver looks at me and ask, "Do you need a ride or are you like walking?" I assured him that I was OK and was indeed walking. They gave me a thumbs up and continued on and I thought to myself how bad must I look that someone passing by thought "This guy does not look well. We better stop and ask if he needs help." I had to laugh to myself and then I thought how lucky I am to live in a place where strangers care enough to ask if you are OK. Tomorrow I walk again. Hopefully I'll look fit enough that people will think I belong up there.
On the medical side, I finally heard back from the doctor's office (Dr. Dechet) at the Huntsman. I have a CT scan scheduled for 6/29/15 and an appointment to see Dr. Dechet on 7/2/15. I have much more to say about this, but it is late and I am tired. When I have time and energy, I will tell you the irony of all of this. But for sure, the 7/2 meeting is going to be a big one.
One last thing before I say good night. I want to thank everyone who has been thinking of or praying for me. I still have trouble believing what has, is, and will be happening to me. It's "INCONCIEVABLE"! Ha. I don't feel sick. I don't feel cancer. My urinary system seems to be working better then it has in a long time. I don't understand - why me. But again - THANK YOU.
Good night.
But I have been getting stronger over this past week. My appetite has almost returned. But I still miss the feeling of being hungry for something. You know when you just have a craving for something. I don't have that - yet. But I do somewhat feel the sensation of hunger. I am working full days, 5 days a week. I do get tired. Bit as I said earlier, I am getting stronger each day.
I decided that I needed to start my exercise program back up. For me that means walking up Green Canyon after work. Not everyday, that would be to much. So Tuesday I decided to walk 2 or more miles. First half uphill - Second half down. So I am a mile up and decide I feel good enough to keep going and I start to climb gate hill. I get almost to the top and a truck approaches me going down. The truck reaches me, slows down, and then stops. The window rolls down and the driver looks at me and ask, "Do you need a ride or are you like walking?" I assured him that I was OK and was indeed walking. They gave me a thumbs up and continued on and I thought to myself how bad must I look that someone passing by thought "This guy does not look well. We better stop and ask if he needs help." I had to laugh to myself and then I thought how lucky I am to live in a place where strangers care enough to ask if you are OK. Tomorrow I walk again. Hopefully I'll look fit enough that people will think I belong up there.
On the medical side, I finally heard back from the doctor's office (Dr. Dechet) at the Huntsman. I have a CT scan scheduled for 6/29/15 and an appointment to see Dr. Dechet on 7/2/15. I have much more to say about this, but it is late and I am tired. When I have time and energy, I will tell you the irony of all of this. But for sure, the 7/2 meeting is going to be a big one.
One last thing before I say good night. I want to thank everyone who has been thinking of or praying for me. I still have trouble believing what has, is, and will be happening to me. It's "INCONCIEVABLE"! Ha. I don't feel sick. I don't feel cancer. My urinary system seems to be working better then it has in a long time. I don't understand - why me. But again - THANK YOU.
Good night.
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Just Waiting
It's been about one week since the last chemo and I feel like shit. Actually, that might be to strong. I guess in the scheme of things, I could always feel worse. But I do feel my best at that moment when I first wake up (assuming I've had a restful sleep). I think to myself that this is the day where my batteries are fully charged. But then I get up, get ready, realize I still don't have an appetite, go up and down the stairs a few times, and I am tired and out of breathe. Then the rest of the day is spent managing the moving around and looking forward to a 2-3 hr. lunchtime nap.
Also, I wish I had an appetite. No food or drink ever sounds good. Don't know if I lost any weight. Don't own a scale. Although my belt buckle has moved up a notch or so. It seems like I am just waiting. Waiting for this to end. Waiting for a moment where I feel not tired. Waiting for the sound of some food to actually sound delicious. Waiting to be able to move on. Waiting...........
I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to my friend Jim, who stepped up and cut my grass for me on Monday. With Dean on vacation, I just mentioned at church that I might need some help and within an hour or so, it was arranged. I AM SO BLESSED!!!!
Well, I am tired and I still have a few minor things to do. Here's some irony. For those who have a cleaning service, do you pick up stuff around the house and put it somewhere so the cleaning people won't hide it from you????
Good night.......
Also, I wish I had an appetite. No food or drink ever sounds good. Don't know if I lost any weight. Don't own a scale. Although my belt buckle has moved up a notch or so. It seems like I am just waiting. Waiting for this to end. Waiting for a moment where I feel not tired. Waiting for the sound of some food to actually sound delicious. Waiting to be able to move on. Waiting...........
I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to my friend Jim, who stepped up and cut my grass for me on Monday. With Dean on vacation, I just mentioned at church that I might need some help and within an hour or so, it was arranged. I AM SO BLESSED!!!!
Well, I am tired and I still have a few minor things to do. Here's some irony. For those who have a cleaning service, do you pick up stuff around the house and put it somewhere so the cleaning people won't hide it from you????
Good night.......
Monday, June 1, 2015
The Last Roundup
Tomorrow I start my 3rd and last round of chemo. After the first round - no problem. But after the second round, I still am not the same man. So here's hoping the 3rd round goes quickly and I will just deal with it as it comes. They didn't give me the dirtiest, nastiest one of the three possible treatments for no good reason. So bring it on! - Hold it - Wait. Does anyone got some pot to sell? This 3rd round may call for alternative medical solutions.
I did get to play golf on Sunday. Thanks to my playing partners - Dan, Dawn, and Paul - they help make each outing an enjoyable time no matter how poorly I play. Latter Barb, Dean, and Ashlee (Dean's girlfriend) came over for an early birthday celebration (I kind of think I'm not going to want to celebrate much on the 5th). We went to dinner, had cake, played a mean game of Clue, and then taught Dean and Ashlee how to play Euchre. It was one of the nicest nights I had in a while and we had fun as a family. I miss playing cards.
With this week passing, I move closer to the final solution. The surgery - RC and neobladder. Of course, it would also be nice to know if the cancer has spread to anywhere else. And surgery will help tell that. But that doesn't seem to matter to me. The damn RC and neobladder is what occupies my mind. I have to start to prepare mentally for this new life - in a POSITIVE mind set.
I'm tired - a common feeling lately. Time for bed.
Good night.
I did get to play golf on Sunday. Thanks to my playing partners - Dan, Dawn, and Paul - they help make each outing an enjoyable time no matter how poorly I play. Latter Barb, Dean, and Ashlee (Dean's girlfriend) came over for an early birthday celebration (I kind of think I'm not going to want to celebrate much on the 5th). We went to dinner, had cake, played a mean game of Clue, and then taught Dean and Ashlee how to play Euchre. It was one of the nicest nights I had in a while and we had fun as a family. I miss playing cards.
With this week passing, I move closer to the final solution. The surgery - RC and neobladder. Of course, it would also be nice to know if the cancer has spread to anywhere else. And surgery will help tell that. But that doesn't seem to matter to me. The damn RC and neobladder is what occupies my mind. I have to start to prepare mentally for this new life - in a POSITIVE mind set.
I'm tired - a common feeling lately. Time for bed.
Good night.
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